Updated: Dec 21, 2020
Saturday Circle Reflections November 7, 2020
Drum sound rises, on the air, its throb, my heart. A voice inside the beat says, "I know you're tired, but come. This is the way." - Rumi
As with last week, I felt a resistance to "landing" throughout the treatment. There was a lot of fear throughout my body, radiating from my heart. I felt how resolute I can be in my refusal to be here and how tight my chest is, ensuring that no feeling gets through. When I tried to let go, I would get dizzy and sometimes even nauseous.
Without thinking, I began drumming my hand against my chest. With each tap, I could feel my body letting go a little bit. I realized that any dizziness I felt wasn't actually in response to letting go. When I let go, I could feel how utterly exhausted I was from all the holding and how unsure my body was when it wasn't working so hard not to feel anything. That was the actual cause of the dizziness.
I continued to drum my chest with my palm. The vibration from the drumming seemed to relieve my body. The dizziness and nausea faded as the vibration radiated through my body, and I could feel my heart in an entirely new way.
The drumming was healing. The vibrations helped stuck energy move through me, and with each beat, it became easier to land and ground myself.
When you feel anxious or stuck, try gently drumming your chest, just under your collar bone, with your palm. Be sure to focus on your breath and pause for a few long beats between taps to feel what the vibration releases and give your body to adjust to the new distribution of your energy.
If you have a small drum, try doing the same with it. Hold it close to your chest, and drum with intention, letting the vibrations work through your body, moving any stuck energy while teaching your body how to let go.
As always, please do be sure to take care of yourself, drink lots of water, and be gentle. If you find yourself in need of support, feel free to reach out to me.
Warmest blessings to you, Chrysoulla